Shallow or Overly Sensitive?

I'm not sure if this blog post is going to be more ranting or more of a general observation.  I've been noticing lately that people have become so fixated on looks that they have become entirely inconsiderate of the things that come out of their mouths.  I'm not surprised and I don't want to reprimand anyone because people are entitled to their opinion.

I know that media portrays a specific look.  And I know almost every woman sits down and compares herself to Heidi Klum or Megan Fox, those women who turn every head and seem so glamorous and enamored by all.  Don't get me wrong, these women are just that and I am on the same page in thinking they are gorgeous.  But we neglect the other beautiful women just because they are not size 0's that everyone wants to have sex with.

I won't lie she's hott, total girl crush but that's not the point.

Why is it that we don't put girls who are over 120 lbs on magazine covers or feature plus sized models?  Women are beautiful in all aspects, we cannot all be perfect barbie dolls who look like we were manufactured in a factory.  We've made things out to be negative: pale, curvy, too tall, stick figure, freckles, curly hair (I remember when everyone would ask me why I didn't straighten mine every day) etc. etc. there are so many.  Everyone has a beauty.  I'm putting up a picture of Crystal Renn, who is now a plus sized model (size 16) who was a model before and had suffered for many years from an eating disorder so that she would be found attractive.

I truly think she is beautiful. 

The main problem is that we've conditioned ourselves to have a really messed up sense of beauty, to treat women as objects instead of people with feelings.  I'm not saying this is everyone, or that it is an overwhelming majority, it is just something I have noticed recently.  From friends comments, banter between friends, hearsay to Facebook statuses etc. etc.
 
I'm going to just shine a light on the fact that I'm not the thinnest person, but I know that I am pretty. My confidence isn't rock solid, but I am proud of who I am and what I have done in my life.  My heart is always in the right place and I'm consistently looking for ways to make people happy.  However, as much as I hear about all those great things you hear people say "if only she was thinner etc. etc."  I won't deny that I could be in better shape, but I'm not going to starve myself to make someone like me.  I am a strong, stubborn, loving, bubbly and dedicated woman.  I'm going to state that if you don't like it, well then your damn loss because I promise you will not meet someone who does half the things I do.  That is a direct shout out to a few guys of recent, have fun with vapid ladies.

Okay okay, maybe the above statement sounded partially conceited, not my intent but I've been frustrated with people lately.  There is a detrimental aspect to being overly shallow when it comes to getting to know people and mainly it falls under not giving someone the chance to shine and show who they are, but also denying yourself the ability to see the exquisiteness of someone under a pre-concieved, society approved notion of acceptable beauty.  So, in risk of being totally shut down do you think that people are too shallow or that I'm being overly sensitive?

Bye Bye Vegetarianism

I have been a vegetarian for about 4.5 years and starting in February I had been having thoughts of giving it up.  However, I wasn't quite sure how to end something that I had been committed to that long.  When I became a vegetarian I was under insane amounts of stress with school, friends and of course boys.  I couldn't seem to make anyone happy and I had a desire to grasp something that I knew I could solely control and no matter what it wouldn't have an opinion about me.  So I woke up one day and decided I was going to give up meat and become a vegetarian. 

I had this theory that if I could eat better, I would feel better and maybe in some aspect  I would be able to make things around me better as a whole.  I was holding a grudge against someone, I hated my classes and I was just fairly miserable for an entire semester in school, and for some reason this seemed like a good way to pull myself out.

I didn't expect to stay a vegetarian for so long, but I ended up being extremely dedicated to it and researched some great recipes substituted meat for tomatoes and found that I actually like mushrooms (of course I tried them about a thousand times before I decided they were okay.)  So this brings me to the whole point of this post, on Saint Patrick's Day this year I really wanted a corned beef Reuben.  I thought about ordering one at lunch but I was worried I'd get sick and I got a salad instead.  My  coworkers were really rooting for me to break the veggie lifestyle but I couldn't do it.  After work my intern and myself went out to the Winking Lizard in Coventry to celebrate his new job and have a drink and it was there that I finally decided to order my Reuben.  One bite into it's corned beef goodness and I knew I made the right choice.  Let me tell you, you never forget what those things taste like.  I'll still be eating a great deal of veggies but I have decided that I'm going to hang out with the protein again.

So have any of my readers been vegetarian and gone back or have you thought about becoming a vegetarian?  Give me some feedback :)

Peace & High Heels

Revelations

So, I realize that it has been quite awhile since I have posted anything on my blog (not sure if anyone reads this so it may not even matter).  I have had so many revelations about friends recently and I have come to the conclusion that there are just people in your life who make it so much better, those people who even if you lose touch with them for a long time come back like they talked to you yesterday.

I have known the same group of guys for about 5 years now and for the most part it has been a consistent time.  But, every so often one person in the group with fall out or someone will get into a fight which throws the aura of the whole group off.  I just have a personal shout out to Buddy, who I have lost contact with and regained it as though no time had ever been lost quite a few times, but I really prefer when we talk on a frequent basis.  It's nights like tonight where driving to Coventry and watching SVU make you realize just how much a friend means to you.

My life has been so full of amazing people and without them I'm not sure where I would be or how I would have gotten through certain situations both good and bad without them.  So from the bottom of my heart, to each and every friend I have, Thank You. <3